Mothers Day

Tomorrow is Mothers Day and I feel blessed that God has aloud ME to be a Mommy - FIVE TIMES!! What greater blessing is there on this earth? Yes, they may drive me crazy someday, but I'll enjoy the ride anyways :o)

I lost a baby in 1998 and I remember at the time wondering why God would let that happen. Who knew I would end up with 4 more children after that? God gives and he takes away...and I never could have dreamed that he would GIVE so much in the future. People ask me how I can possibly handle having 5 children and I say "I really can't imagine life any other way".

As I type this, they are upstairs working on "something". I don't know what it is but Isaac has already whispered in my ear that they are giving me a gift tomorrow. They put so much effort into this day every year and it makes me smile to hear all of the whispering going on tonight :o)

Another year older....and wiser??

On April 16th I turned 35....THIRTY FIVE!! I remember being young and hearing people talk about how "time flies" when you get older. And now I know EXACTLY what they mean, especially after having children. I think back to my teenage years and it literally seems like it was about 5 years ago, not TWENTY years ago.

Turning 35 bothered me a little....Ok, alot. I couldn't quite put my finger on the reason until my Mike suggested that maybe it was because 35 rounds up to 40, not down to 30. Yep, thats it!! I am now on my way to 40. Blech!!

But finally I am realizing that time DOES fly by.....and alot of the reason it passes so quickly, is that we're always in a hurry. Rushing here and there, always worried about what to do next.

So here's another old saying "Take time to smell the roses". I need to listen to that and plan to do "nothing" more often :o)

Another Fall

Sometimes I truely wonder about myself. We ran into Kmart tonight just to get some sugar and Elyssa wanted to go in the back of the cart, instead of in the seat. I grabbed a ball from the ball cage and gave it to her and decided to let her sit in the back since it would only be for a few minutes. Of course, I turned my back for just a few seconds and when I turned around, she was standing/leaning over the side and before I could grab her, she hit the floor....with her head. That dreadful sickening THUD that I have come to hate after having 5 kids.

She cried and has a bump but her behavior was fine after that....Funny thing is, about 5 minutes later I hear a recorded voice over the Kmart speaker system saying "Please be sure to keep your children buckled into the carts and never leave them unattended". Not sure if that was a coincidence or if someone saw it on a security camera and decided to play that message. UGGGGH!!

I get the bad Mama award for 2010......already!!

Missing Leah

After a year of having our video camera, Mike finally sat down and figured out how to get the videos onto the computer. He showed me how to plug the tiny card into my laptop and view the movies. Pretty neat!

We were watching some clips from last year and he told me that our old dog Leah was in one of them. Cool!! But I wasn't expecting what happened when I clicked play. The very moment I saw Leah's face I felt a flood of emotions, started crying and closed the laptop. I told him I couldn't watch it, but of course I opened it again and finished watching....
The video was from Mike's brothers house and Leah was running in the yard with Rays dog....the same yard we buried her in about a month after that video was taped. All I could think while watching it was that she was running on her own grave :o(

I have never felt a strong attachment to any animal until we got her. As soon as I saw her at the pound, I knew she was "our dog". I remember her laying in the back seat that day when we went to get Brandon from school. We drove for probably 5 minutes before she popped her head up and Brandon noticed her. He loved her too! She was always great with the kids.

When she died our whole family cried, including my big strong husband AND his 2 brothers. We all took turns digging her grave and buried her with her toys and some pictures the kids made for her that morning. I remember calling my Aunt & Mom to tell them and I could barely get the words out because I was crying so hard. A few years ago, no one could have told me that I'd feel so strongly about a dog.

RIP Leah....We miss you still!!

Ghosts and Angels??

I'm not sure what I believe about SEEING angels or "lights" or beings....but something else happened today. Brandon woke up and came downstairs to tell me that he had seen a "ghost". He said he was at his girlfriends house visiting last night. She was playing a playstation game and he fell asleep. When he woke up, she had also fallen asleep and he saw a bright golden colored light by the TV and against the wall. He said he didn't feel afraid and it didn't look like it was coming from a window and it just kind of faded away after a few seconds. I immediately said "It was an angel Brandon!!" and then I thought wow, did that just come from my mouth? I have always been skeptical of things like that although there have been 2 people in my family who have seen things before. 

I told him how I have been praying for them and about the things happening with Trisha this week....He said "Wow! If you guys are going to pray for me one week, could you please warn me ahead of time?" :o)

3/24/2010

It's been almost a month since I've been here. I can't say that there is really anything exciting to say.

I have a horrible cold and I've been a whiney baby about it :o) Elyssa has it too, although she is almost over hers. We've been cuddled up in the recliner at night so that we can breathe and so Daddy can get some sleep too.

We've put carpet in the kids' rooms which somehow caused a HUGE argument between me and Mike but it's all worked out...for the moment. I got some things off my chest that have bothered me for YEARS and I think it has helped alot....But anyways, the carpet makes their rooms look so much nicer.

I've really had to take a look at myself lately and admit some flaws. Especially, the fact that my spiritual life is pretty pathetic. No ones fault but my own, of course. It's time to work on that! Some of the women in my family (Mom, Gramma, Aunts) have decided that we will fast from certain meals every Tuesday and take that day every week to really focus on specific people who need prayer. I know we'll see some great thing happening soon!

It's almost Easter. My kiddos are in a little church play this Sunday. I'm still searching for the perfect Easter dress for Elyssa. Mike things I'm going overboard with the search but Haylee won't let me dress her girly anymore so I want to get my chance in while Elyssa's too young to argue about it :o) I remember Easter Sunday always being so special when I was a kid. The clothes, the dresses, the white shoes and hats and purses....then the Easter plays and so many people at church and the egg hunts. Of course as an adult I know that Jesus is the most important thing, but it's still fun to have a reason to REALLY dress up the kids! And sooo, the dress hunt continues.....