I guess this will be a whiney post. Can I call it "venting" so it doesn't sound so bad?
I am tired...tired and a lil' bit overwhelmed. Mike has been working some extra hours and I can tell that I have been on my own with the kids more lately. I have to play the good Mommy role but geez, I am just plain crabby inside! LOL I need a vacation!!
I love my kids to pieces, and Elyssa is really a pretty good baby, but I am WORN OUT lately. I need to start taking the prenatal vitamins again to get some energy back. I hate feeling "blah" all the time. Most days I can't wait for night so I can go to sleep, but then I sit here instead because everyone else is asleep and I can enjoy the peaceful house. It's a rediculous pattern that I KNOW is not good for me!
Add to that, in the past 2 months, I have had 2 LONG colds and some type of weird flu thing too. That hasn't helped anything.
I just wish I could go to sleep one night and not wake up until my body is READY to wake up....Instead of waking up to an alarm blaring or "MOM! I'm hungry!".
It's all part of the life with 5 kids, I know that...and I wouldn't trade them for anything. I am just having one of those days I guess. And on top of everything else, I have these moments and then feel terribly guilty for not feeling that "motherly bliss" at all times.
Oh well...I do hear my bed calling. I'll do the smart thing and answer it :o)
11/14/2008
11/08/2008
A plug for the big guy upstairs!
Just wanted to tell a little story about my Gramma while I'm thinking about it.
About 9 years ago she was diagnosed with stage 4 breast cancer...It was pretty much as bad as it gets. She had known that she had a lump for about 6 years before the doctors found it but she's stubborn and refused to tell anyone. It was so bad that a large sore/scab had formed on the OUTSIDE of her breast.
She had a partial mastectomy, chemo and radiation. She lost all of her hair and felt sick often but rarely missed church and still went on her mall shopping sprees occasionally. Only a few short months after the diagnosis, she was back to work cleaning houses (she has her own cleaning business).
In 2005, she found out the cancer had returned. They found it in some of the bones around her neck area....bone cancer - not a good thing to hear. So, again she had radiation but opted for no other treatment. She was declared cancer free again a couple of months later. Her doctor was still not very optimistic, but when he told her she had 7 years left at the MOST, she just smiled and said "You apparently don't know the God I serve".
Now it has been almost another 4 years. She had a PET scan done last month which would show any cancer in the whole body. Her doctor called her and asked her to come in to talk to him about the results.
He told her that there was something there....but they couldn't decide if it was worrisome or not so they wanted her to see a surgeon to double check. Of course we all started praying and fasting. When she went to see him he ran more tests and told her that he couldn't find anything!! He also said, "From looking at your history, you should not be alive....But you come into my office and you are strong and healthy. You are a walking miracle".
God has been so good to our family. My Mom has also had cancer twice and went through it better than most, even without chemo OR radiation! They both have a wonderful story to tell, but most importantly, they both serve the same God, and he continues to keep them under his wing.
Thanks Lord!!
About 9 years ago she was diagnosed with stage 4 breast cancer...It was pretty much as bad as it gets. She had known that she had a lump for about 6 years before the doctors found it but she's stubborn and refused to tell anyone. It was so bad that a large sore/scab had formed on the OUTSIDE of her breast.
She had a partial mastectomy, chemo and radiation. She lost all of her hair and felt sick often but rarely missed church and still went on her mall shopping sprees occasionally. Only a few short months after the diagnosis, she was back to work cleaning houses (she has her own cleaning business).
In 2005, she found out the cancer had returned. They found it in some of the bones around her neck area....bone cancer - not a good thing to hear. So, again she had radiation but opted for no other treatment. She was declared cancer free again a couple of months later. Her doctor was still not very optimistic, but when he told her she had 7 years left at the MOST, she just smiled and said "You apparently don't know the God I serve".
Now it has been almost another 4 years. She had a PET scan done last month which would show any cancer in the whole body. Her doctor called her and asked her to come in to talk to him about the results.
He told her that there was something there....but they couldn't decide if it was worrisome or not so they wanted her to see a surgeon to double check. Of course we all started praying and fasting. When she went to see him he ran more tests and told her that he couldn't find anything!! He also said, "From looking at your history, you should not be alive....But you come into my office and you are strong and healthy. You are a walking miracle".
God has been so good to our family. My Mom has also had cancer twice and went through it better than most, even without chemo OR radiation! They both have a wonderful story to tell, but most importantly, they both serve the same God, and he continues to keep them under his wing.
Thanks Lord!!
Rachel's Shower
Today was my Aunt Rachels baby shower. She got soooo many gifts and she looked beautiful! She is more like a sister to me than an Aunt. It made my heart happy to go to her shower today....to see her finally pregnant with the baby she has wanted for so long. I can't wait to meet little Samara so she can play with Elyssa :o)
Haylee and I worked on some decoupage wooden letters that spelled out "Samara" for the nursery wall. They turned out really cute.
As for family news....nothing too exciting. The kids are all doing well in school. They are still fighting like cats and dogs at home but we're working on that behavior.....Next week we'll be ordering Brandons cap/gown/invitations for graduation. Aaaaahhh!!!.....Isaac is pretty moody lately. The terrible 2's are at their worst right now. On the flip side, he often tells us he loves us out of the blue and that makes up for the rest. Is there anything better than hearing "I wub you Mom"?
Elyssa will be 3 months in 3 more days. How did THAT happen?? Today she rolled over for the first time, back to front. She thought it was a neat trick so she did it 3 times for us. She's got the chubbiest little cheeks and she's been a happy little girl for the most part. Everyone comments on how good she is. She waits patiently for someone to make eye contact and then gets this HUGE smile on her face. I must give her 50 kisses every day :O) She sleeps from 9:30pm until 5-6am. I'm sure most Moms can understand how wonderful that is! I truely couldn't ask for a better baby!
Besides the fact that I'd like to win the lottery, life is good right now :o)
Haylee and I worked on some decoupage wooden letters that spelled out "Samara" for the nursery wall. They turned out really cute.
As for family news....nothing too exciting. The kids are all doing well in school. They are still fighting like cats and dogs at home but we're working on that behavior.....Next week we'll be ordering Brandons cap/gown/invitations for graduation. Aaaaahhh!!!.....Isaac is pretty moody lately. The terrible 2's are at their worst right now. On the flip side, he often tells us he loves us out of the blue and that makes up for the rest. Is there anything better than hearing "I wub you Mom"?
Elyssa will be 3 months in 3 more days. How did THAT happen?? Today she rolled over for the first time, back to front. She thought it was a neat trick so she did it 3 times for us. She's got the chubbiest little cheeks and she's been a happy little girl for the most part. Everyone comments on how good she is. She waits patiently for someone to make eye contact and then gets this HUGE smile on her face. I must give her 50 kisses every day :O) She sleeps from 9:30pm until 5-6am. I'm sure most Moms can understand how wonderful that is! I truely couldn't ask for a better baby!
Besides the fact that I'd like to win the lottery, life is good right now :o)
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